unwell =(

gawd..i feel so NOT good...itx as if i havnt got ENOUGH sleep for a week...i think im gonna be sick! T_T add mo pa ung nararamdaman ko ngaun..i just dont feel so good..its as if i want something or someone...but i just couldnt FEEL it..i dont know..i feel like BURSTING already...

it's JUST ...SO.........uncomfortable feeling so uneasy..


i want comfort...='(

*sigh*

Seriously..I'm feelin' weird today...these days actually I feel alone...oh crap! I don't know how to explain it..lol xD but enyweiz...yea..i think I'm 5 months single na? (not so sure though..) but it still makes me feel alone..probably because of I don't have someone special to focus at...I'm not just so sure...(I hope they're not reading this) kase wala pakong gusto sa mga sumusuyo sakin rather those who are willing to love and take care of me..It's weird..


I'm waiting..I could feel---I could actually sense that he's NEAR..i could sense that i already know him...it's WEIRD. Honestly, I'm liking someONE...though i think he won't like me...T_T

once again...IT'S WEIRD...everytime I think of it..It just makes me feel sad =(

I wonder kailan ko masasabing...

"yea..He's HIM...my him...=')"

(wooo drama haha xD)

28/11/08

Today is our Recognition Day! I'm not going to be recognize though..xD but I'm happy with the grade I got this quarter...ave 90.82 rank 25..ain't so bad eh? Besides I'm in the star/cream/top section so I don't expect much..especially sa rankings...naku..ang tataas kaya nila haha!

sa mga classmates ko...Congratz!

PS: Madel and Maan (kambal) thanks sa libre! ahaha xD

a long day...

gawd...i slept at past 11 or 12...woke up at 2:30...and now im doing my homework...coz we'll be having our retreat this week...So let me share MY DAY Nov.8 with you guys..

Woke up at 8.. 1pm i went to SM Sanlazaro to pay for my uniform in AUDITION BABIES and i got to meet other clubmates! <3 who are fun to be with...(i had fun...there were moments that made me speechless and think for a while) ahaha! xD

Message to Babies > i love you guys..^_^

To continue...i was on my way to my bes' party...it was olredy 7...(gawd) i waited for like 30 mins coz the lrt's really full with men..hahahah! so there we go...*whoooosh! i was really in a hurry...coz i don't want to arrive at my bes' with just ME in her recreation room..lol

Went to monumento..to meycauayan..to SM Marilao..to Muzon (Villaluz) bwhahaha...i was there and gave her my gift (a pig in a cage...i named the pig Lee..well originally it was GRAZEE...but i chnged it! hahaha) so aun..masaya...my other classmates were drunk...when i arrived they were like fooling me that they'll go home and leave me since it was olredy 10pm when i arrived...ahhaha!

After a few hours..we went home with a balloon...lol! oh btw my bes' 16...^^
we were laffing our heds off while going home...bwhahah..(reason why im still laughing : WHAT HAPPEND WAS STILL ON MY MIND!!) ahhaha AFTER SHOCK!
so overall...it was worth it...really...i had fun...they had fun..WE HAD FUN!

enjoy life..^^

P.S ---I LOVE YOU BES...^^ <3

couple of months vacant..

vacant = single

oh well...i didn't knw i cud manage myself this long...asked y i stayed single for a couple of months..and still loveless from A special someone? *whispers "coz i dont want IT to happen AGAIN..." but it doesn't mean i'd stay single for years..lol its just that im MORE careful with my heart and their hearts this time...awg..im such a good gurl..lol xD

i actually missed this...typing/telling/sharing my thought thru my blog..but oh well...back to the topic..

i'm crushing on some peeps...but lets face the fact...hanggang crush lng...asa ka pa(talking to myself) lol

they say we should be PROUD of being single...in-a-way..YEA....but another in-a-way..NAH..

i'm actually fed up being single..no no no..lets change that...lol..I MISS taking care of someONE special...telling him the do's and don'ts lol..(motheR??) hahah xD oh well..i guess thats how i love..but theres more to explore. Leos are simply mapagmahal...

im just waiting...after graduation...i'll probably be ready to have someONE again..

someone to take care of...

someone to be with...

someone to share personal thoughts with..

someone..

someone to love and own..

=')

xoxo,

Lee

watta !@#

You guys would notice that i haven't posted anything in my blog for the month of October (lolx) I was actually planning to post my grades for the 1st Quarter but i wasn't able to It's because i've been busy for a couple of days doing projects...and still im not yet DONE! grrr..~_~" but i'ts ok..I'll pass it after our exams which will start on thursday (oct23) which is tomorrow...that's till Saturday...4 subjects on the 2nd day...argg! Pray for me...xD

I'm able to type this because I'm in our school's computer Lab. And we're having our oral recitation and I'm not yet called (naku sana alam ko sagot sa tanong na mabubunot ko...)

I miss visiting my thread and other threads in Egames...I only attack in Egames thread these days..i seldom post for i might get tempted..and instead of doing my projects--i'd stay posting in threads...(just to avoid temptations..lol) xD

Probably..by next week, i'd be free to roam round the Egames thread..but first i'd chill and relax in some place......just to cool myself down..aun...mis u guys!



xoxo,
Lee

^_^

sept.24

Another day...another new beginning..^_^

I'm in our school's computer lab now..and I'm done with our seat work with programs...my eyes hurt already! arrgghhh...oh well...after a few minutes we'll be going back to class and have our Physics "LONG" quiz, then English Quiz and Math. Too many quizzes today...so tiring..

I slept at 12:15am yesterday and woke at 5:30--then got ready for school!
oh wait...our teacher's already here...see yah guys later!!!

^___^

till next post!!

-Lee


goodluck sa quizzes namin..............wew..dami dami xD

Godbless!

21--Sunday!!!

Too many things happened today…I just got my new haircut!! Nothing changed big tym! My bangs just got shorter! Lol…oh well…after the hairspa and haircut stuff, I got hungry and decided to eat at Karate Kid---I haven’t tried eating there…so I just went there! Lol I ordered their chicken teriyaki and the dessert…strawberry jam mousse…aw gawd..i loved the dessert…arggg!! Its like im craving for it..NOW..haha xD

I got home kinda late already…Im actually typing and I haven’t change my clothes yet! Oh well..that’s it for now…too many busy people….~_~”

Oh yea..before I leave and post another entry tomorrow, I accidently bit my lip…as in SUPER BITE TLGA!! Arg…super dugo sya kanina…arrgg!!! It still hurts…T_T

Till nxt post!!
-Lee

this is for Dee ^^

Mr. Christian O. Dy



wish you all the best dee! ^_^
dito lng ako if you need me..
wish i was there! lol..but enyweiz..
Hope ur wishes wud come true!
and do avoid eating burgers for lunch..lol


TAKE CRE!!!

luv ya!

GODBLESS!

=Lee=

CONGRATULATIONS IV HUMILITY!!!

All the pain we felt as we go for practices…THEY’RE ALL WORTH IT!!!!
We’ve prove that star sections are not only mentally retarded/nerdy (lol)
But active as well in the non academic competitions!!!

GUDLUCK SATIN SA MALOLOS!

St.Mary's College of Meycauayan Intramurals 08-09

(September 17 ~ September 19)

Hi there guys! A formal intro of myself here!

Name: Loralie "Lira/Lee" Sevilla
Department: Highschool
Section: IV Humility
Adviser: Ms. Noemi Salonga
Ranks/Groups: Class PRO, 4th yr epresentative of Computer Club, Cdt./Sgt.

Congratulations to those sections who won and brought their banners up high!

The real story of every game lies within the player himself/herself. If ever there was any cheating that happened--it's only them who could confirm it. Let's admit guys..may dayaan---but the game's over! Congratx nalang din sa tinanggap ang pagkatalo nila and a big round of applause to those who won the championship.---it was a friendly competion after all..right?

JOB WELL DONE co-MARiANS!

"Championship/Finals" Winners: (1st place only)

Cheerdance Competion (3rd-4th yr) : IV Humility
KasayawKa :
Best annotator in KasayawKa : Terica Buenaobra (IV Humility)
Street Dance (1st-2nd yr)
Volleyball girls : IV Charity
Volleyball boys: IV Sincerity
Basketball : IV Charity
Table Tennis : Arem Talusan [IV Modesty/boys] Jacquelyn Javellana [IV Humility/girls]
Poster Making : IV Unity
Chess : Arem Talusan [IV Modesty/boys] Stefanie Javier [IV Humility/girls]
Singing Contest : solo=Emman Vailno [IV Unity] duet=Emman Valino w/ Mary Joy Roxas [IV Unity]

boring...

September 11 2008, Thursday.

what a day to start with..

I slept at like 1am...woke up at 4:45am..ate..took a bath..dressed up..went to school
and here i am...here WE are..lol doing a seatwork we don't know how to start or do it..haha

So our peer teacher, asked to make a love note to our dear computer teacher.

So here WE are again..just surfing the net...Friendster,,lol xD

erhmmm..i dunno what to say....how i am feeling right now is...i dunno..im clueless haha!
im OK..happy nmn ako...QUITE! ^^

calling on all Audistas!

Hi eGamers! Are u so called a "mamaw" at the dancefloor AUDITION BATTLE DANCE OL?

Want to have a family where you can almost talk about anything?

If your a girl..want to be unique? (a club where there's more guys than girls!)

Here's bC1 (Bionix Club Uno)

a sister clan/club of Baguio Clan Uno---World's #1 WAR ROCK TEAM

biOnix Club Uno is a club where good/talented audistas are grouped together!

its not only the skills we're talking about here...personality, attitude towards other players and discipline is also necessary!

It is named

biOnix--which means strong, great skills

Club---we're ONE--a Family!

Uno---#1

Come and join our Group!

Just send us your application here at our Friendster account

bc1_audition@yahoo.com

(NOTE: applicants--changing of iGn into bC1 is required!)

If you just simply want to be a family member in AUDITION

just search our family name

biOnixClub-1

(exact spelling and form of letters is required)

and apply!

GET MAMAWFIED!

"Where Legends are Born."

NCAE

the National Career Assestment something lol..so called as the NCAE! was done a while ago....it was easy..good thing i didn't sleep late in rviewing notes! haha xD wat u need was stored knowledge! luckily...i have mine..haha! xD

hows lyf?! oh well...getting bored... im just trying to enjoi my life.. even though there are corners that ar already crumpled...the only thing that cud straighten/flatten them is......oh well

next topic =') like i said..the NCAE was easy! ^^
In our 1st Quarter periodical examinations...fortunately i didnt get any failing grades!! ^_^ THANK GOD! ^^

sunday..

yesterday, i went to church..on my way i was wearing a sad face..i had no expression at all...due to being single AGAIN...and pain it caused me...

When i got there..It was praise and worship time..(im a born again christian)
the lyrics really hit me bullseye...i felt how much i needed God's strength in me...since im too weak aleady...and like my mentor friend said..im becoming vulnerable...

Yesterday nyt..a friend called me, he asked if he cn court me. I refused..and prankly told him "sorry..im not ready yet. I still love him". That time I knew i hurt his feelings...but he got nothing to do. He just respected my decision and said he would wait.....

I actually don't know if i'm being selfish...Out of all the guys who're willing to take cre of me...I chose HIM---the guy who didnt appreciate the effort i exerted in our relationship just to NOT make things complicated..

Im being too emotional i know. Yet i don't know if all hopes for me are GONE.

im simply.................broken
smiling due to pain
hyper due to loneliness

right now..
What you see in me..what expression/feelings you see in me.....are all lies

T_T

wake up..by coheed and cambria

I'm gonna ride this plane out of your life again
I wish that I could stay, but you argue
More than this I wish, you could've seen my face
In backseats staring out, the window

I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I will be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I love you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

I've earned through hope and faith
On the curves around your face
That I'm the one you'll hold forever
If morning never comes for either one of us
Then this I pray to you wherever

I'll do anything for you
This story is for you
('Cause I'd do anything you want me to for you)
I'll do anything for you
Kill anyone for you

So leave yourself intact
'Cause I won't be coming back
In a phrase to cut these lips
I loved you

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
Until you decide to wake up

The morning will come
In the press of every kiss
With your head upon my chest
Where I will annoy you
With every waking breath
'Til you decide to wake up

unexplainable

if your going to ask me how and what im feeling right now..i couldnt explain anything...all i could say is...i want to love, and i wanna be loved. ='(


simple as that.

bad day

my sister (eldest) cam back here in the phil. from dubai..just for a vacation. She bought me BROWN lenses..instead of blue...T_T which is sooo not good...(brown won't look good on me) huhuhhu!! What would I do??!

But anyways..anothing thing, It's pur exam WEEK! and all our projects have the same DEADLINE! huhuhu why do teachers do that often...make their students submit ALL of it in just one day...

Enyweiz..i have my pc back..^^ back..im just hoping it wont a cathvirus ulit..T_T huhuhu!mhhrapan nnmn ako T_T aun...im downloading all the stuff i need..specially AUDITION...15 patches to go...xDDD wew~~~

bad day

I got home from our project making in Terica's house at 11pm..so late..arrgghh so i had no energy left at all..May pasok pa bukas!! nakooo nmn!! xD

Morning came...i woke up..my mum nagged me about fixing some celphone prob thingy (info: i finishd training as cellphone tech. JUST for FUn xD) I told my mum not to let me think of stuff that i shouldnt focus on!! i dont want to forget anything that ive learned and studied the day before!! ..eventually..she got mad at me...so OK..i just went out and went off to go to school...it rained...the tricycle i was in had a flat wheel....after he pumped some air in, we almost totally super crashed at another tricycle..the driver turned right immediately and we kinda got stock in a huge hole....and fyi guys...before we got ourselves shooT in that freakin hole..i screamed like hell...who's not going to freak out when u are at the stake of DYING!?!?! x_x

that was just soooooooo pathetic!! it freakin freaked me awt like hell! after that incident, i just kept quiet..and suddenly tears fell down my cheeks...*sigh* "Thank God I'm still alive..." i whispered to myself. Maybe i was just too stressed to cheer up and think positive..

Who would dare to have such a morning? what if we totally crashed to that vehicle....i wont be able to celebrate my 17th birthday....='(

what if...

What if you're missing someone? someone who's near..yet hard to reach? What are you suppose to do? Just sit and think of that person? Do something to reach that person and take the risk? Or just accpet the fact that person's GONE?

Have u ever missed someone and felt terrible
because u think that he/she doesn't miss u?

Missing someone is a terrible
but at the same time, sweet feeling.
U will be sitting around wondering
if u meant anything to him/her.

Thinking if he/she ever cares about u.
Rushing to the phone once it rings
hoping that it's him/her.
Looking out of the window
hoping that he/she will surprise u
by appearing downstairs.

Sitting in front of the television
but thinking of him, missing the
final episode of your favourite show.
Laying on your bed,
thinking of the last time u were out together.

Thinking of how nice it will be
to sit under the stars again,
talking about everything,
your dreams, plans, future.

Logging on to the internet
hoping to see him/her online.
When u realise that he/she isn't online
and did not return your page,
u will start worrying if he/she is okay.

Missing someone is a way of growing up i guess.
It exposes u to loneliness.
It teaches u how to cope with being lonely
and let u know that there is actually a feeling
known as emptiness.
Sometimes it feels good to miss someone.
U know that u really care and
u indulge in the feeling of loving/caring for him/her.

But missing someone and not knowing
if he/she is feeling the same is terrible.
U feel as if u are being left alone.
So if u miss someone, tell that person and
let them know.
At the same time, ask if they miss u.
Don't let the feeling of missing someone become
jealousy or paranoia.

If u are the one being missed and u know it,
let the other party know, that's if you only
miss that person too! Telling someone you miss her/him
when you know that he/she DOESN'T is kinda embarassing
and deimnnn...that hurts!!!

UST~~Humanae Vitae

Saint Mary's was invited in the event the 4oth yr of Humanae Vitae and I was one of the representatives of St.Mary's. I was kinda excited coz i'm graduating na and this is once in a lifetime experience to be in a rally. haha! xD

When we got there, other schools were also present. PRO-LIFE peEpx, etc. It was soooo damnnn HOT!!! grrr...that really pissed us off but after sometime the wind became really generous. haha! It rained at about 4pm and it was funny when people did the SUN DANCE haha! xD i was shy and i found it quite wierd..so I just sat on the grassy field of UST under my friend's green umbrella. Time passed...about 5pm my 4 classmates (girls only) and I got so freakin' BORED!!! Our school's designer and media thingy (kuya Bong) toured us in UST..wahaha! it was so fun..we took pictures in every interesting spot! I'll be uploading it this week NO WORRIES!! haha!

There's this guy who greeted us "HI MARIANS" (Ateneo:atenista ; St.Mary's:Marians) but he was only looking at me and smiling..^__________^! haha shocking..he was realllllly cute!!!! xD i doubted to say hi...but eventually i did..xD After sometime i saw him again! hahaha! (what an adventure) infairness it was fun hanging out without the sisters(nuns) seeing us and get caught in the act...haha

if that happened yesterday...most probably we'll end up in the Disciplinary Office haha!

I got home at about 9:30pm...i was really tired, so i just cleaned myself up and went to bed. oh and by the way..did u see us in TV PATROL, BANDILA and GMA? haha! we were the ones wearing a BLUE JUMPER! from St.Mary's College of Meycauayan City Bulacan!!! haha xD


Till next post..!!
*bOw*

weEeEee~~

ONCE AGAIN..

Can i say IM BACK? haha! sorry guys i didnt post much these days...got too busy with school work..(graduating na ehh..YAY!! xD) So many things happend..SHOCKING..xD erhhmm..i'm still single..for 2 months already!! haha! XD weEeEeee~~ still waiting for the right one.."Lee's man.." haha! xD Enyweiz yea...there are some peEpx courting..but let's just say I just make sure that I won't cry (and cry and cry...and so on..) and making sure he's the one i'll be with for years...haha!
i missed posting in my blog...T_T even my viewers!! ^^

WHAT'S NEW?
..uhmm i often sleep LATE coz of playign audition online and doing homeworks, studying, ETC.!!!...which freaks me out when i take a bath early in the morning (the water's deimnnnn cold!!! brRrRrrrrr) huhu! And yesterday...aun..i slipped sa stairs sa school malapit sa C.R..T_T sakit ng leg ko may pasa...wuhuhu!! im so iztufiid en clumsy..amF

MILITARY STUFF
ohh yea...since i'm a 4th year HS student..we're having our CAT. I applied for the Military Police for girls...simply because i don't want to be handled by some platoon leaders who got some issues with me regarding..."!@#$" CLUE: an abstract---feelings! xD

--CDT./SGT./SEVILLA, LORALIE, B.--------- reporting for duty ma'am!! xD

---request to fall out...haha XD

ACTUALLY..
I'm here sa schol ngayon..i got nothing to do kase..friendster and forums here are not ALLOWED to beviewed by students..GRRRR..xD So till here...I PROMISE TO POST AND UPDATE (regarding my insights and what's new) WHEN I'M NOT BUSY.. haha

love u guys!!
---till next post!!

IM BACK..xD

After a LOOOOOOOOOOOONG time spending and wasting my money in net cafes...my PC's back! as well as my internet! ^^ So I'll be posting again often! Watch out for my soon to come entries.. I'll be back on track and will be opening my friendster everyday (hopefully..if im not busy with school work) xD

aun....i miss you guys....till next post!


-Lee
single...happy...yet there's still something....missing T_T

Lee's new quote/motto [[just sharing...=) ]]
"1 is enough...2 is too much....3 is toxic."

in a BAD mood..

its not that im single!!! its ok with me to chill!! more space..more fun!! but my freakin' internet connection is sooooooooooooooooooooo slooooooooOOOooOoooOooOoOoooWWWwwwwww.. can u imagine how slow it is? it's like a baby turtle...forcing itself to run!!!! O_o

gRrRrrr....damn smart bro..enyways!! I'm playing the guitar a while ago..half of my body got stuck in my cabinet [[where my xtra stuff are kept]] coz i was just looking for my songhits...and yet...I COULDNT FIND 'EM!!! [[not a single one..]] grrrr..good thing i could still type and post entries in my blog..WHEW!! atleast...

Moving on...I'm so into being loud over the net these days.. I like staying in the lobby [[AUDITION PH]] and get loud... xD i like listening to songs these days [[any genre]] i'm into lying on my bed and text my friends.. what's with me? lolx I wanna chill out...im currently dreaming on having a vacation in an island...where there is only ME...and my teddy..[[wtH?]] my friends i mean...xD

IM SO INTO GETTING HYPER!!! grrr...i don't like it...i can't control stuff that i'm going to say...it's like i don't care at all ..but i really do..WTH?! ohhhh...i'll rest for a while..i think im getting paranoid...TILL MY NEXT POST!!!

[[have to go find some yogurt...it might cool me down a bit]] xD

it's freakin' HOT!!!! giv my net back!! *irritated* X_X

my song?...x_x

It Ends Tonight.

(by The All-American Rejects)

Your subtleties

They strangle me

I can’t explain myself at all.

And all that wants

And all that needs

All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.

A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,

It ends tonight

It ends tonight.

A falling star

Least I fall alone.

I can’t explain what you can’t explain.

Your finding things that you didn’t know

I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing

My minds unweaving

Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted

On this evening

I give the final blow.

[Chorus]

When darkness turns to light

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Just a little insight will make this right

It’s too late to fight

It ends tonight,

It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side

It’s better than being on your side

It’s my fault when your blind

It’s better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside

Now you’re the first to know.

"i don't want to say goodbye..

but i think you're the one who's leaving...T_T

i won't force you...nor convince you

just remember...i still care.....T_T"

x...Thank you for the memories...x

xoxo, Lee

According to Eddie Corbano
(reff: http://www.longdistancerelationships.com/10_Rules.asp)

10 RULES TO MAKE LDR's WORK xD

1. Have A Relationship Plan For The Future
~Know where you are heading. Have a light at the end of the tunnel.

What do you want to accomplish in you partnership? Have goals and a time frame when you want to be together. It is very important that you both have a hope to live for. I think that this is the most common reason why some long distance relationships don’t work: they don’t have a plan, they just hope it will turn out right, that a miracle is going to happen. Certainly this also means you have to make sacrifices. At least one of you.

Realize that you most likely only have three options: she moves to him, he moves to her or both move to another place. Start talking about it as soon as you realize that you want to be together. The biggest mistake you can make is to hush it up

2. Meet Regularly
~Try to see each other every month at least once. Plan this ahead and make it a celebration, an explosion, something very special! Soon this short meetings will be something you long for, something that you will align your life at. Remember, you only get a real connection by touching, feeling and smelling a person. You don’t get scent with email or skype, or that initial wow you feel inside when you see your love. So do everything you can to meet at least once a month or so.

3. Use Modern Technologies To Communicate
~You need all the help you can get, so why not using the glorious benefits of a modern communication world. Using all this electronic stuff will make it much easier for you both. Imagine how it used to be 100 years ago, when a letter used to take months.

4. Give Yourselves A Free Day
~I found it very helpful to insert a day or two without any communication. What then happens is that you miss each other very intensively and you usually find yourselves at a more higher level than you were before. If the only way of interaction between you is canceled for a day or two, you will either progress or doubt. In any case you will know where you stand. This is also a good way to test your long distance relationship. [[parang ang hirap ata nito..haha!]]

5. Write Extensive And Intimate E-mails
~Open yourself up completely. Write about your inner state, what you are feeling, what you dream about, what you hope for. As a rule of guidance: describe in your e-mails your inner state and in your phone-calls your outer state. Writing is more intense than verbal communication and allows you to be more intimate. That will create a tighter bond between you. The most important thing here is: be honest! Don’t pretend you are someone you are not. Don’t put yourself in a better light. Long distance relationships only have a chance if both are completely honest and congruent.

6. Send A Written Letter Once In A While
~Do not underestimate the marvelous feeling, when you look in your letter box and find a letter from your love, open it and see his/her writing. This is a pleasure we often forget about in this modern times. Not to mention that it’s far more romantic.

7. Beware Of Jealousy
~Jealousy is a very dangerous thing and can threaten every long distance relationship. Jealousy is commonly a lack of trust and understanding. It very often reveals insecurities and bad experiences in other relationships.

The keyword here is simply: trust. You cannot control and observe your partner, you only can have faith in your relationship and in the things you build together in the times you had. Hold on to that and never give in to that green eyed monster.

Jealousy is one of the most negative and destructive emotions there is! Listen to Shakespeare:

O, beware, my lord, of jealousy

It is the green-eyed monster which doth mock

The meat it feeds on; that cuckold lives in bliss

Who, certain of his fate, loves not his wronger

But, O, what damned minutes tells he o’er

Who dotes, yet doubts, suspects, yet strongly loves!

8. Avoid Dangerous “Situations”
~Trust is essential. If you completely trust your partner and also have faith in your relationship, you can pretty much do what you want without endangering your relation. However, I nevertheless recommend avoiding some specific situations. Of course it depends on the person, but I would not date the opposite sex alone, or go to wild parties. Simply avoid temptations that could distract you from each other.

Better safe than sorry!

9. Never Loose Faith
~Watch out, you will meet a lot of skepticism. People will tell you that long distance relationships never work, especially those who have had negative experiences about it. Don’t listen to them. People tend to negate things they failed on.
Listen to me: it can definitely work, but you both have to believe it.

10. Always Stay Positive
~Always assume that your partner loves you and cares about you. Never assume anything negative, whether you read something in his/her e-mails or you disliked how he/she made a weird comment on something. Don’t interpret to much in it.

The problem with non-face-to-face communication is the lack of facial expression. It is so easy to misinterpret but unfortunately much harder to trust and stay positive.
I assure you, if something was wrong, you will know it.

As you can see, I’m definitely positive about long distance relationships. They expose ongoing life lessons, and prove that love, loyalty, and faith are the vital ingredients to a lasting relationship.

a Long DISTANCE Realationship

Are you in this kind of relationship?! Most people must have found this really stupid and effortless. But for me, if you really love that person..you'll do anything to have and keep that person's love. Love isn't just NEAR or just BESIDE you...it can be found anywhere, even in the corners of a dark room [[wat?should it be really dark?]] haha! xD

Anyways, seriously I DON'T BELIEVE IN LDR's! [[that was before..]] until I met this guy..well, actually he was a friend of mine for quite a long time (I've been staying here in the philippines for 3 years..maybe we've known via an online game for almost about..i don't know..more than a year?) So ayun, Our connection via net was lost i don't know how and why, but because of my friend which i just met this year I get to meet him again [[not eye to eye though]] but it was weird..He used to call me "crush" and when we found each other's end point, he still called me that! He courted me..sent me some stuff [[stuff that would impress a girl i guess..]] all the way from cebu. That really amuzed me..NO ONE...has ever did much effort for me.

On the other side of the story, while he was courting me..there's this other guy who I've fallen in love with already but we ain't committed...This guy which is IN cebu right now, i don't know what's gotten into me that I keep missing him..(IF YOU R THINKING...well it's DEFINITELY not because of the sweet stuff he sent me! I admit im maluho kind of girl but i'm not used to asking other people to buy me stuff! SO DON'T THINK THAT WAY!!! amp)

Eventually..I fell inlove with this cebu guy (E.J) X_X At first..I didn't know what to do..T_T coz i don't know if i could handle such relationship...T_T But i tell you...*AHEM* publicly speaking, I'm loving this guy MORE than i ever loved any guy!!!! [[wheeeeeeeewww]] TAKE NOTE: LONG DISTANCE...He's now my boyfriend...[[O_o wahahah! =p]]

Why am I loving him so much? [[it's because he's taking care of me..]] how..i don't know ...there's just this feeling..that..as if he's so close to me....weird but a happy feeling, it's not just you're inlove!! you're in love with a great guy! i mean...it's just this freakin' distance! And how are we surviving? It's because both of us [[SPECIALLY ME!!!]] believe that the time will come, we don't have to worry how far we are and how much distance there is that's keeping us away from each other.. He's got 3 years more to finish college...5 years for me.. That won't be too hard i guess..i mean..come on...ur loving for real, you don't mind to sacrifice..right?

Right now..what i wish for..is something to hold on for eternity...our TRUST, LOYALTY, LOVE, PATIENCE...and most specially...STRENGTH to hold on to this kind of relationship and HOPE for letting our paths meet in the future---the right time.

whats happening to Lee O_o

Last night..I was playing AUDITION ONLINE when my tummy hurt so bad i was almost lying on my keyboard X_X [[weird ehh..]] I dunno... My mum brought me to the hospital near our place, i couldn't walk..nor breathe properly. I was taken to the ER with a wheelchair [[wtH?]] haha! i found it funny...i dunno y..maybe because i never sat on a wheelchair before..haha! XD

The doctor said I lack water, Sleep, etc. i had a low b.p xD While i was lying on one of the beds there, i was txting my bes, and my baby, even though those imp. people in my life aren't there physically..i could feel them..i dont know..its weird..but a great feeling, coz u dont feel that much distance thats keeping you away from them.

Right now, i'm still drinking this 30cc syrup and some powder..i dont knw wat..di na masakit sikmura ko..puson ko nlng xD I try to avoid giggling..coz i feel pain..still. But im way better now than last night.

aun...after 2 days or so..i must be so well..i've got meeting to attend to on tuesday with my 3rd yr classmates xD

Till next post!
I'd still be posting even if i'm not well
i simply love sharing what i have in mind...and in my heart as well..^^

MOVIE : The Holiday [[LOVE!!!]]

Last night, my couz asked me to watch a movie w/her, since we both had nothing to do, we watched this movie called "The Holiday" [[dvd dvd dvd! xD]] it was all about LOVE!!!. The Phrase i remembered when the movie was about to start was

"Love is BLIND...according to Shakespeare"

[[I didn't know that quote was from Shakespeare!!]] cool eh?

2 heartbroken ladies exchanged homes for 2 weeks [[xmas holidays]] and so on and so forth [[I'm not giving detail about the rest..just WATCH it..its a gr8 movie really..]]

Arthur (the old man) there said to the heartbroken woman (it goes like..)

"In every movie, there's the leading lady, leading man and the leading man's bestfriend...In your life itself, you should act like the leading lady!! according to your story, you are acting like the bestfriend!"

.:x MY VIEW x:.

Unfortunately..sometimes, people tend to forget that the conclusions of every situation in our lives depend on what our decisions are and what we do. We usually lose our pride when we get hurt and forget that we are the leading person in our own movie...

And to end our movie with a happy ending...Remember;

>Share

>Think (consequences of your actions)

>Act (prove something)

>Love

>LEAD

P.S > S.T.A.L.L has nothing to do with our MOVIE! haha! xD

BE INSPIRED!!!!!!!!

Till my next posT!

xoxo,

Lee

HAPPY MOTHER'x DAY!!!

happy mum's day to your mum!!!

I've been a bad gurl today...i slept at 3.30am and woke up at 10.30am? Eventually my mum got mad 'coz she didn't get to go to CHurch ...COZ OF MEEEE!!!!! T_T wasn't that mean..huhu! I really felt guilty! So i thought of giving her a surprise/gift! Since i only got P500 with me, i thought of giving my mum a cake..with a letter of course. (the letter is shown below..pls don't laugh) xD

Oh come on..Its not bad to be sweet once in a while..xD but what i wrote in that letter is true..and sincere! (ehemm..) ^_^ So ayun..Continuing the story, I planned to go to church NYTtym and unfortunately SHE WAS COMING WITH ME .,..haha! so what i did, while she was taking a bath...i went straight off to Merced's and left her! hahahah! xD [[that was close]] So i left the cake at the counters/the baggage place thing..i got the number 40. My mum and I met in the church itself..she was like "kung san san ka pa pumupunta.." haha! I was in SILENT mode...i didnt talk much. After the service, I gave her the number 40 and said "mami..pagod nako..kaw na kumuha.." I acted as if i was sooo exhausted haha! She smiled..and said "naku..tamad ka tlg.." hahahaha! OMG tlg..poop!

She was..syempre...surprised, cake nakuha nya dun sa counter and when she turned back, i said "happy mother's day..sorry medyo late na.." hahaha! gabi na kase ehh, but still...cakes are for desserts and so we ate it when we got home..right now im still full and i can still taste the mocha flavor..TOINKX! hahaha! BATI NA KAMI!!!! xD

THE END! [[ohhh how sweet of me..xD]] haha!

So guys..that's it for today's story! lolx

TILL NXT POST!! love y'all!

GAMERS awt deRr

if you pipol are really on the groove to hit those arrow keys and show off your latest and fave move...then probably..ur an audistah just like me!!!! xD

Audition is an online game..not only to have fun and be challenged..but to have new friends as well! It's worldwide and we have our very own AUDITION here in the philippines by e-games. Try it..and if ur in it...then see you at the dancefloor....

bC1-coldF- hir..a certified member of bC1 add our official site via friendster

Friendster

bc1_audition@yahoo.com

http://profiles.friendster.com/bc1audition

and try to visit our FORUM

http://forums.e-games.com.ph/index.php?topic=463930.0

take care guys...HAVE FUN!!! ^____^

.:x FEATURE friend of the Day x:.

Guys! Here's my feature friend of the day!

Let's start off with Mr.Kriz Lopez aka SIOMAI! (y? i dunno..xD), his proffesion sticks to being a call center agent (so he probably speaks good english..xD) He's 21 years old and lives/stays in Pampanga PH.

So how did we meet? In audition PH, it was long time ago..i was still a FREEDOM that time..xD We started calling mew when he finds me a "memew' while he's "halimew" at the dancefloor..(WHEW!) siOMai's simply a great guy..who loves to love, loves burgers, loves to joke around and loves to drink..xD

What else? he's a great friend...the reason why he's my feature friend of the day is because he's my most active friend..lolx We love to talk and share stories even the darkest secret we havE! [[haha!!]]..xD There's never a dull moment when you're with him or just by having a chat w/him...coz he's simply CRAZY!!!!!! [[peace!]] ^_^ if you wanna know him more..check/add him in FS!

http://profiles.friendster.com/15116925

TILL MY NEXT POST!!! [[chaO!]] ^^

yay!!!

Guys...my pc is already done! ayus na!! ^_^ weeeeee....i'll get to post my entries na... so ayun...eto muna...i'm currently downloading stuff like ym, i mesh, audition, ETC ETC! after this..i'll be posting daily here in my blog! so just keep visiting for updates!

misssssssssED YOU! ^^

Once again..

I'm done with the HACKING ISSUE...I actually don't care anymore!! Besides..why would I get bothered..they're just using my pictures...and i still have myself with me!!! hahaha! xD

So starting all over again..BACK TO ZERO..huhu! I made a new fs account..If you wanna add me..MAKE ME!!!!! xD lolx...kidding.. [[if the hacker or poser is reading this now..BLESS U !@#$]] (mkkarma ka din kala mO...wakokoko!!)



oh well..HAPPY HAPPY!!! ^___^

GUYX..watch out for my upcoming posts...I'm PLANNING to feature my close friends on earth here in my BLOG!..lolx xD Just for you guys to be aware.....that besides having POSERS and HACKERS in this world..there are still some people who really cares and will never leave your side!! awww...*puppy eyes* lolx..



so till my next post..



GB!!!^^.v

IM HACKED

GUYS...ATTENTION HERE PLEASE..

FOR ALL FRIENDSTER USERS THERE..IM NOT THE ONE USING ALL MY OFFICIAL ACCOUNTS....IM HACKED...ALL MY ACCOUNTS ARE TAKEN FROM THAT FREAKIN' POSER OR I DONT KNOW WHO!

these are the links that you might think that's ME!!!!
well...TOO BAD...it's not me..they're called POSERS ^^

1. http://profiles.friendster.com/67007005
2. http://profiles.friendster.com/63296997
3. my first fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion
4. my 2nD fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion2
5. my 3rD fs account http://www.friendster.com/coldfuxion3

NOTICE that even my OFFICIAL accounts are taken...

The reason why...I HAVE NO FREAKIN' IDEA..

SO JUST A REMINDER GUYS...If you wanna be my friend in my friend's list at FS..Better know me first....i don't want POSERS and HACKERS hangin' around...so..


MESSAGE TO THAT HACKER/TRYING HARD PIPOL

ENJOI HAVING MY PICTURES....haha!
I'M STILL ME

THE ONLY ONE

I had been true to him all this time
But our relationship didn't work out fine
He promised me he'll stay
But now all I can do is pray.

He already found someone
But I chose to find no one
Lots of love comes again, but my heart refuses
I dont't need those trashes.

All I'm longing for is my boo
I don't need a three or two
Even though he chose another one over me
To be his girl is all I wanted to be.

False promises were made for me
To put me in pain and insanity
I believe he's my destiny
I thought what had happened was serendipity.

no connection

Yesterday i called smart bro for like 3x? But infairness to the agents there..they're like so friendly (duh?) pwahaha!

enyweiz..i didnt get to go oNLine in audition PH which resulted ME in SLEEPING EARLY..amF! and mah bad...when i woke up..i got this !@#$ called SORE-EYES!! huhuhuhu! but its not that bad..coz i hav 'em in both eyes..xD

Hey YOU! I MISS YOU! ^_^

yesterday..*ubo ubo ubo* i was in my CAM mode...meaning pipol get to see me via webcams (huwatt?) yea..lolx xD but my DARN PC ..you red ryt! darn it..its hangin'!!!! i'm planning to format this thingy coz i think its full of virus or sumting...xD

good thing i get to post a new one in my blog...just to share what i've experienced yesterday...xD

So wat's with the picture? (wala lng..trip ko lng) hahaha! its me..my nose in nose pack! pwahahah! i did that after a looooong bath..weee!



till nxt posT!!!


Lee is missing you...xD

REPORT CARD DAY

I just finished my 3RD YEAR highskool...and i got my grades yesterday..shocking...

SECTION : III -Sincerity..MIB building..LOLX ahahahaha!

ADVISER : Mr.Michael Botis [[rock on]] xD

NOTE : General ave

Fil ------------- 88.50

Eng ------------89.25

Math ---------- 90.50

Sci ------------ 85.00 [[i don't like chemistry]] ='(

Makabayan --- 93.00

AP ------------ 92.00

TLE ---------- 93.50

MAPEH ------- 91.50

CL/Bible ------ 95.25 [[cool eh?haha!]]

RHGP -------- 93.75

Club Inv. ----- 92.00

GEN.AVE. ----- 90.22

bwahaha! o yea...success...^_^

bbye third year..

HELLO SENIORS!! xD pwahehe..xD

Lee is the happiest EMO xD

ok..so hows life?

i simply decided to be active to my youth fellas and i didnt open my friendster account for 2-3days i think..it's all part of the MOVING ON thing..lolx

so that's the way it is..as of now.....i love my friends..new friends...and more friends ,,i dont care if they're faaaR away from me..besides i can feel their freakin presence..lolx...in the future..we'll all trip and hang out together....eventually..^_^

the initials i bladed out on my wrist is not yet healed...but mentally i am..and im so damn happy...hu cares..not all emo's are depress..so live with it! lolx

so ayun....wala lng...masaya...^__^ update ko kau palgue!!

mission..ACCOMPLISHED!!

oyea...guess what guys...IM ME AGAIN..hahaha!

for your info guys...i've moved on already...and it feeels GREAT!!!

pwahaha! whew! love it!

enyweiz..i'm starting a new life again..

THANKS to my friends..who were there..ALWAYS!

to siOmai, apOi, kuROro, maRK, ely, jim, alynjel and other peeps including my bes..

thank you... =') to my bC1 family..EHEM! ubo ubo ubo..xD

bsta..thank you guys..

special thanks to the Lord..

i've surrenderd ALL THE HURT, PAIN, BLADE, and other bloody stuff..

lol...

ok..so enuf with the thank you..

i just feel so damn great ^_^

hello new hyperactive life..lolx

bbye pain from YOU!!!!!

thank God it's FRIDAY!!!

ok...moving ON...still in healing mode..xD



First of all..i appreciate you guys for viewing my blog and for caring to know the glimpse of my life..thank you ^_^ I find it really nice typing all the thoughts I have in mind..Even though sumtimes...Tears fall while i type..pwahaha!



Today..Lunch time [[i havent taken lunch yet xD]] my mum noticed me [[duh]] i was really quiet wahaha! I was making 'bantay' sa mini stor namin so ayun...she was epal nanaman sa pag move on ko when she started telling MY LOVE STORY with THIS GUY from THE BEGINNING when we met in I-MESH/bearshaRE!!! GOD! i was like "HEY MUM..you can stop now..STOOOOPP!!!" lolx...eventually i sed that while i had waterfalls agen..haix..so tired..my mum wasn't helping me at all....but she encouraged me at the end... for her it was encouragement...but for me..waAAaAaaa..... that put me down!!! [[heLL yea..]]

A while ago..i was lying on my mum's biggie bed..i felt sleepy..but somehow found it BOORRiinG!!!..i rememberd him..[[i just wish he was here...T_T]] i miss him..stupid eH?! O_o haix...I silently cried "i want him back"..and prayed "Lord..help me....I just want to be happy.." =')



Nakakapagod din pla y

ung ganito...ngayon ko lng kase naranasan ulit toh ehh...T_T



SANA MAGING MASAYA NAKOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='c

April 10

I've been sitting in front of this computer for almost 12 hours..it's making me dizzy now...lolx Anyweiz, I hope you guys are reading my long loooong stories..don't worry..they're ALL REAL!^_^

I'm still bleeding (not literally..if u knw wat i mean..) it's like i miss him...O_o
haha! I was just staring at his character while we were playing audi, my eyes...filled with tears, i didn't knw my mum saw it..and sed "You miss him eh?" Ohh God...that striked me..haha! It's like im losing all the energy i got..and then just started to giggle, or just giv a smile, so that it won't be too hard for me..

It's so stupid..crying when you don't want to
Playing online and waiting...when you're already tired of it
Dieting...for i don't know why i'm doing it!
and the stupidiest thing...
Loving....when you don't get love back.

When you think of it...It's weird why people love...and love....and LOVE...when in the end..they get HURT..and sometimes..even drown themselves to tears.

Today i got a free lunch from a friend..it was nice....it cheered me up a bit..lolx
But time passes...and there we go again.................reminiscing..xD

Lee's current lovelife..

can i call it FREAKY?



lolx..hi agen...this is quite the continuation of what i posted a while ago.



For now I had 10 boyfriends..they're all serious relationships really..i LOVE alot..i guess thats the reason why i get hurt (maybe?) In that 10 guys..BELIEVE IT OR NOT..5 are long distance relationships and the other 5 are near enough..



So why am I SINGLE!?!?! lolx



It's because i'm tired of short term relationships....the longest and strongest relationship i had lasted more than a year.. and i miss that experience, i wanna break the record till the end =( I hated the way i get to have a new one when i broke up with the other..so i decided to be single..and wait/choose the guy..



"who would love me for who and what i am..who's willing to sacrifice for his/our love (to prove it)..the guy who wud be almost FOREVER with me..."



I don't care if its long distance or watever...come on! it's LOVE.. if AGE doesn't MATTER..

so does DISTANCE......it's simply NOT LETTING ANY OBSTACLES stop your love..

(this is starting to make me teary eyed)



so what the hel is with this picture?
i carved near the wrist "dC" small d capital C...
you may think it's pathetic...i do this stuff to myself when i REALLY get hurt...so far..there are 5 initials carved in my lil left hand..=( this is the last one...

This guy is very special to me... He's studying in this place not SOOO far from bulacan.. He started courting me.. i dont know when..but he did..

so there..many guys we're courting at the same time...i busted all of them...except this special guy...he may be cute..but he's not handsome..he may look kinda a bad boy type...but he's sooo kind...^_^ so there..POOF! eventually i started to fall for him...HOW WE MET was a weird but really an astig story xD


But the love story, i think ended...when (according to him) his granny didnt allow him to go to college in manila...he decided to back out from courting...and i guess from loving me too..
so here..I think he'll do everything to forget me..it really hurts ehh? he didnt want a long distance relationship..maybe he lacks TRUST in me...i dont know...it's really hard and it deeply hurtS.......................................


LOVING a person WHO WANTS TO FORGET YOU..?
After all that happend... =')



He simply wants to forget all about ME.... (oh God, here i go again..T_T)



im scared to love now...........................
.........i dont know what could heal me...haix T_T



It's hard to forget someone you really loved...and i guess...still loving..(shockx...)

Why is Lee EMO!?!?

hmm..so how am i gonna start this thing?! lolx..btw..hi guyx! iM Lira...col me Lee for short..

I'm kinda eMO....yea! right...so this is how it started..I spent 14 years of my life abroad...having a complete family.yet unhappy... My dad retired and unfortunately my mum and i had to go with him.



So..TADAA!!! we arrived in the Philippines at Dec.8,2005

the time? i think 11pm..im sure it was night time..a brand new

starex van arrived just infront of our gate..uhah...and my dad was like

"hey im going to your lola's bday..so..i'd be bak.." and handed me over

a 500DIRHAMs (currency in dubai) and said "giv that to your mum"





ok ok...i was startled..i thought it was weird..y? coz he didnt

invited me!!! oh come on!! even though we're the second family of my dad

my lola really loves me!! im the favourite one..and my dad didnt freakin'

invited me!!! isnt that stooopid?





CHILL...so there..My mum and i we're waiting for him..i fell asleep olredy

and i was hoping he wud come bak...coz HELLO!! he's my dad! he shud be the one

providing us our NEEDS!!! for a month i think my mum was really upset of

how we're going to complete our day with 3 meals...[[omg..shud i even say that?]]



lol..so yea...trully it was HARD!!!!!! i hav to sacrifice too....for 2months..

i got depressed..and i stayed in my room for yea..2 months..cool eh?!

haha! sO there..in my dearest room...i began writing poems, and eventually

i found out..i was already emo.....i have this blade in my wallet which i always

check when i get hurt...



Let's say I get hurt by someONE REAAAALLLY bad..his initials are carved

in my left hand (coz im a righty)...if not in the hand, then at the lower part of

the left hand...below the wrist!! wtH...haha!



This one i made just a while ago....I COULDNT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!

oh yea...for ur info guys..its kinda blur..but for real its really glowing red, that was taken FRESH lolx! (i feel so bad...) it's "dc" why? i'll tell you...

Lee's wOrkx COPYRIGHT!!!!

Guyx..chek out my sum-wat animated siggy's!!!












coOL eh?! I get paid for it...KIDDING!!! haha!
xD!!!

kEep cheking my blog if u wanna see more..^_^


urs trully,
LEE